Well. I'll be the first to post here, eh?
Yesterday, someone said a comment to me. It was something like "you freak." It didn't matter to me, then, yeah? I continued walking down the street in my cool-as-hell business suit with my bright green hair. Anyway..
I got home. And I thought about the comment. I tried to think of reasons why that person would say that thing, to a complete stranger, y'know? It drove me mental just thinking about it, then I clicked. I am a freak in other people's eyes. That one comment had set off all the triggers in my head, and I went.. Well.. Crazier then I already am. I cried, I screamed, I even broke something made of glass and it made me bleed..
Then my Schizophrenia joined in, and all I could hear was just people telling me horrible things about mysef. I got worse. Now today, I'm still very angry about it, but I've calmed down a bit.
This happens on a regular basis, and I have no idea why those little things set me off. Being unmedicated maybe? Or just because for a fraction of a second I believed that normal random, who tried to fit in with everybody else.
So, heh. ._.
Sat Jan 31, 2009 5:11 pm by Relyh
